Information not so informative.

Good Morning all, I have to say... after almost 8 hours of sleep for the first time in many months.. I'm not feeling too bad right now. I say right now because I know i will have a crap load of mood swings during the day. For now I will just set here and chat while enjoying the day's first cup of fresh brewed coffee.
So a little about myself. I was born in Savannah Ga. Dec. 1st 1960.. Yes I know.. I'm old. I have a s Sister and we were both adopted very young. We grew up in a violent  and abusive house. More details about that for another time. I left home at a early age and for the first few years of my young adult life I spent drinking and drifting from job to job, sofa to sofa. I use to believe that I would never live to be 40. Between my inner drama, drinking and no sense of self or direction in life, I honestly felt I had to reason to be anything more than that... a loser. For some reason I did live past the self imposed expiration date. I somehow found some direction.I stopped drinking  like a fish a long time ago and still I feel like a loser. Ain't that some shit?
Okay I know I am leaving a lot of details out and I know thats a little annoying but at some point I will tell my story... in full. Or as full as I can recall.

So I will share with you the things that mean something to me. Art is a passion I have had for a long time but I was too lost in my head to embrace my artistic side. Now I do. Music is also something very special to me. I have always called Music " The Friend that never let me down and always know what I am thinking and feeling."
I'm in a wonderful relationship with a man that has in many ways saved my life. He encourages me with my Art. He try's hard to understand my depression and dark days. He stands by me..even if he feels like running. I'm not an easy person to live with or understand. Very few people get me. I am however... very grateful for the ones that try to get me. I use to make friends easy.. not so much now.
Lets see what else...I love plants, trees... Nature in general. I like simple things. I have a friend back in the Atlanta area and we use to go to all the junk stores to look around and yes.. buy junk. I miss that so much. Not the shopping but the moments when we would laugh about silly shit. It made me feel like.. i was apart of life and life was apart of me.
Well I can't think of anything else to say really so I will end this. As I said before I do drift when i write so if you found this post a bit fucked up... it is. LOL
Of course I doubt anyone reads this but thats okay. I'm doing this for myself.
I talk to myself all the time anyway... this way I can write to myself and no one gets freaked out..LOL
allen